My friend chAka really likes this song.
In brief, I had just spent five or six months really really pushing on the "Make Music a Career" thing for the first time in my life. It was exhausting, and beautiful (the words "earnest struggle" mean a great deal to me), and it was also the first time I found myself consciously making an effort to be media-ready, audience-ready, dressed-for-success, and all that good stuff. While I recognize the necessity of marketing myself in this way if I am to become a successful independent musician, it was a role I felt odd about settling into--and settling into so readily that it started to absorb more of my time than the reason I was doing it to begin with (music).
autumn
autumn has come
autumn has gone
did you blink and fail to catch my shooting star act
count me among
the well-known no ones now
how far can you go in five months
how far can you take me in one voicemail mentor
both here for the same reasons
but you do it so much better than me
we are all alike in that we aspire to be on sale
we are your mainstream variety we are
hot topic, we are upscale
vintage, we are newport news
depending on your mood
we resent the system
that gives us our ambition
we don't see the irony
there is no celebrity
in a third-world country
and we can turn our smiles on and off like vibrators now
and you are so together when you sing; i let myself go and it works for me that way
we both long for someone at home we can show our true faces too
but we fear we'll forget how to make them by the end of the day, we:
commercials for ourselves
commercials for ourselves
and you say i look nice tonight 'cause i look nice tonight (i think)
still, when i catch you off-guard you flounder for the right words
i long to know what you think
i long to know that you thinkg
i long to talk to you eye to eye, man to man
but i don't think it's gonna happen
still we both know, we both know why i look nice tonight
commercials for ourselves
we, both here for the same reason
but you do it so much better than me
copyright rorie kelly 2006
